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kamusta? yokogawa called..minsan dami talaga surprises sa buhay... there is fate nga siguro..but i can't be certain yet..hangga't wala pang result ang medical..wala talagang nakakaalam sa mangyayari sa future...
mahal ko na ang yokogawa..yesterday i couldn't bear the thought of not making it to the medical check up...pero naisip ko na i shouln't worry kasi what will come will come, and what will not will not..i should face whatever life will give me...then move on afterwards...pero siguro maaring maiba ang lahat kung may mangyayari...
naisip ko pala...gusto kong magserve sa yokogawa with all of me...my mga dala dala akong bagahe sa sarili ko pero naisip ko na gusto kong iset aside yun for the sake of duty..pinagkatiwalaan ng yokogawa ang isang katulad ko na baguhan palang at eengot engot pa...ayokong magsisi sila na kinuha nila ko...siguro nga im getting older..nafifil ko na ang sense of responsibility over things..
another chapter of my life is about to open..sana nga tuloy tuloy na 'to... nangyayari ang lahat para sa pinakamabuti..hey there..watch out!!i'm coming now..

obsess ka na...

i'm sorry zah..kaylangan na talagang mag move on... its hard. alam naten yan.. so pano.. good bye yokogawa...
tama..nanghihinayang ka.. but the mistake was done..basta next time, do better.. move now,zah..
madaling idifferentiate ang hope at expectation by words pero mahirap by practice...
things will be alright.. you got there without any expectations about anything..
that is so much bearable, zah.. akala mo lang hindi...

something better is waiting for you... gaya ng ordinaryong broken harted, mahirap nga sigurong kalimutan ang first love, but you'll eventually move on.. di ba..
engineer ka! hindi ka hapon!!
you're not out there to learn japanese!! you're out there to find a job..

okay.. malungkot ako ngayon... e ano naman ngayon!
noramal lang yon...

please heal this broken heart

i am aching inside.. yokogawa company hadn't call me yet. sabi nila yesterday, tom daw..

sad.. 'guess i already fell in love with the company..
and also to my interviewer...

yeah.. there is fate.. perhaps I am destined to work somewhere else..

but why am i in pain??

Maybe i already built my dreams in growing up in this company... i really wish to work for them..
if i'm not really meant for this company, then why am i feeling this?

i've gotten so far.. i even met the president. a japanese. he seemed nice..jolly. he laughs a lot.. i really wish to work for thme..but then...

i know, there are reasons for everything..siguro nga hindi lahat ng wish pwedeng magkakatotoo..

sa totoo lang umaasa pa rin ako.. natatakot ako at nasasaktan at the thought of failed expectations..pero kahet ganon umaasa parin ako..

hai... sana maging maayos parin lahat...

pag ibig..hanapin mo nga ako...

keep going, don't give up, never feel sorry for yourself

bukas ang sintensya.. oathtaking na..dapat isa itong event na ilulook forward, pero hindi...
keep going..

ayos lang yan...

on going parin ang job hunt...

matatapos din to..

nakakalula ang yokogawa. naiintimidate ako. nakakasad din..
mahirap iretain ang hope pag wala kang nakikitang shed of light.. but this too shall pass... like everything else... this too shall pass...

san kaya ko mapupunta? anong company kaya ang kukuha sakin..lahat naman ng tao kaylangan magtrabaho...

keep going... maraming akong reason to continue.. may mga sunrise at sunset pa akong makikita.. may mga rivers and seas pa akong pagmamasdan.. mga magagandang flowers na matitingnan at mga butterflies na makikita kong lumilipad...

life is wonderful.. i know i shouldn't dwell on the sad part..